You missed everything,

Monday

Lesson was so boring. All band members left school for Singapore Youth Festival. Class was v quiet without Fadhila & Idris, and of cause, the very best girl, Fana. ); Assembly, sat wit Sri Darlink. Fell asleep, teachers were kind enough to let me sleep, hek hek hek. :P Woke up, saw Farris & Aryna. Then dismissed liao, went to Canteen lepak wit Praba, Isaac, Cheryl, Tina, Ying & Vivien. Then went to Artroom, Bandees were there. Saw Farris, he he. Yep, he's still into the convo between me, Amy and him, lol. Band got bronze for SYF. After drama, got worried for our Drama SYF & other stuffs. (bitch)

Tuesday

Was late for school as well as Geography class. Sat wit Farris. ^^ Art, was ok. Recess, worst. English, boring. Math, Shakir, Angelo & Emmabell went to Parade Sq wit me. Purpose is to make me eat medi for Menses, -.- Skipped AIP as i don't feel like going. A official came, they sat together, look so perfect, no mistakes. Yet, still smiled at me. I'm sorry, i didn't manage to smile back. Went to Drama, did 3 full runs. Was super shag, but bobian, needa strive silver/gold for SYF! Went home wit Farris & the rest, but in the end i walk home, fuck Pms, grah. Sorry Peter, );

Wednesday

April fool, i got fooled 3 times, wth. First is Ahmad, telling us that they are alr in school, ask us to walk up. Lucky Idris told me, today April fool la girl! Lol, si Ahmad. -.- 2nd is, Yimling la. Fuck her, when standing up for National Athem. She suddenly shout my name and said " Emily! Your skirt got chewygum!!! " I jitao jump and say " huh, really ah?! Shit la, fuck man. " Then Yimling, Evan & Vera laughed. Again, i got fooled. ): 3rd thing, is Farid, damn him. -.-

Had geog, sat wit Farris ^^v He's damn good in map-reading. I don't know what he doing sial, what i only know is to copy his answer. Had physics, had some problem. Thanks Jiawei, only you understand. & to someone, stop being a kaypo can? -.- Not your problem, come in gam lan? Pubor. Tsk. Stayed back till 6, suppose to take bus wit Farris & co, but in the end, i walk. Decided to walk and think everything properly & cry. Then walk, suddenly Farris shout my name, asking me to wait. Then i faster wipe away my tears and step yige happy. Then he's like "Why you cry?" I was like thinking of a excuse and i said "Er, no. I felt like vomitting." He's like"See, told you alr, abort the child. Is it my child?" I was like "lame, lol" Then walk, didn't notice car & farris yelled at me and said "You want to die ah? Siao." Then Suhaimi & Farris left after sending me to the traffic light. Bathed, eat dinner. Went to Phoenix, then go bpp meet Ying & Jason. Jason treat me extra small coke -.- Then walked home, (3 of us stay near.) Then Jason was like saying Ghost story, then i also say, because i see before in school. Then i feel something go piak my leg then we jitao run to my block. Lol, scary bodoh!

Thursday

School was ok, made a fucking fuss at the canteen. Went for N level Prelim oral. Fuck sial, confirm fail de loh, nbcb. -.- Went for drama, then left school wit Sri, Farris, Michelle, Fadhila & Suhaimi. They companied me to my block, cus i'm still scared. lol. Fuck man. -.-

Ok, i'm like l-o-l-ing now.
I'm on msn wit Amy & Farris, lol! Damn funny ok, will paste the convo next time, lol! Ok i go chat liao, byeeeeeeeeeee! [;


Farris said he's a good boyfriend & he missses me, ha ha ha ha! Dumb boyfriend. -.- See you tomorrow! [; (love!)

No picture as i'm using laptop and not desktop. :/


Woke up at 9.30am, watched Doraemon, if i got Doraemon hor, i huat liao ley, lol! x:
Ok, played Nitendo Ds, then bathed and bus to Westcoast again, lol. Aini said i got corkeye just because i didn't saw her in bus 75. Kurangaja! Lololol, ha ha. [; Then went to Xintua, koh-kun, disturbed brother by singing to him, lol! Oh-ya, i hereby announce/declare that i hate Eggdog. Because i saw someone's blog, and i got so pissed off. I tell you lah hor, although your blog is private, never invite me, but i will still know de ley. Think that person what? -.- If want write about me, please type my name, Emily is preferred. Thanks alot.


Ok, don't bother to ask who is it, because i promised my brother not to, lol. So yah, ok. Tomorrow's school ^^v, like finally! Ha, school's ConcertBand having their SYF tomorrow. Good luckz yo, Drama's on 8th April, grah. I haven't memorize my lines, ohmymamamama! I think i go memorize later.


I'm learning, very hard.

lesLie : I linked your blog through Joysiee sister's. :) Ha, link me ok! :D

i'd say, i doubt so. (i don't know.)

Ok, i deleted my previous post, i dont know why. I signed off my msn, i don't know why. I'm sad now, i don't know why. I'm behaving likethis i don't know why. I'm thinking of you again, i don't know why. I have to get over you, because you hurt me so much, and i'm very very hurt. I'm crying, i know why, its because of you. You don't care anymore. I ain't that wonderful anymore.

Sorry, went blog-hopping just now, and was on Xingan's blog, found this quiz and i copied it. Will do it now, ya. Duh, fuck you.

Rule 1: You opene​d this;​ you gotta take it

Rule 2: You are not allowed to expla​in anything unles​s someo​ne text you and ask!​


LAST PERSO​N YOU:

1 You hang out with?

​• Farris, Hadi, Micheal, Alson, Shakir, Jenica, Sri, Akif, Fana & Fadhila. :)

2 Who was the last perso​n you texte​d?

• VivienBestfriend,

3 Last perso​n you were in a car with?​

• Forgot, lol.

4 Last perso​n you went to the movie​s ?

• Wah, i sibh oh-piang de, i forgot. x:

5 Last perso​n you went to the mall with?

​• Jason & Yeeru. (L)

6 Last Perso​n you talke​d on the phone​ with?​

• Cheryl, ha ha!

7 You messa​ged/​comme​nted?​

• Vivien & i forgot. Lol, psps.

8 Who are you talking to now?

• None.

Q: Kisse​d someo​ne on your top frien​ds?

​• Uhm, yep.

Q: Been searc​hed by cops?​

• No, i guaikia! ;D

Q: Been suspe​nded from schoo​l?

​• No, ha ha.

Q: Sat on a rooft​op?

​• No, i bo-ta one. [;

Q: Been pushe​d into a pool with all your cloth​es on?

• Almost, but they failed. :P

Q: Broke​n a bone?

​• No, so hiong la, bodoh!

Q: Have shave​d your head?​

• Siao-ding-dong!

Q: Playe​d a prank​ on someo​ne?​

• Alot of times, ha ha ha!

Q: Had/​have a gym membe​rship​?

​• I think so, at Thailand. :)

Q: Shot a gun?

• Kid's?

Q: Donat​ed Blood​?​

• I not that da-fang. :>

WOULD​ YOU RATHE​R:

1 Eat or drink​?​

• Drink drink!

2 Be serio​us or be funny​?

​• Funny, ha ha, I am.

3 Go to the beach​ or mount​ains?

• Beach i think?

4 Die in a fire or die getti​ng shot?​?

• I'd rather die in my sleep. ;)

ANSWE​R TRUTH​FULLY​:

1 Sun or moon?​

• Moon.

2 Winte​r or fall?​

• Winter :)

3 Left or right​?

​• Right, ha ha.

4 Black​ and white​ or color​ed?​

• All! Hahaha!

5 Do you want to get marri​ed?​

• Yes, wit you! :P

IN THE LAST WEEK HAVE YOU:

1. Kisse​d someone​?

​• Ha, no!

2. Been hugge​d by someo​ne?​

• Got got got! Haha! :D

3. Been poked​ by someo​ne?

​• By Farris, :D

4. Cried​?​

• Almost at Ahmad's house, :/

5. Gotte​n in a fight​?

​• Quarrel counted? :/

6. Someone told you they loved​ you?

​• Yeah, alwayz.

Repos​t this as: WHO WAS YOUR LAST? :)

Ok, after doing this quiz, i'm still "i don't know". Sighhhhhhhhhh. I miss Farris now, i need to talk to him about how i feel now, ); Farrrrrrris, you dumb boyfriend. ); You can cheeeer me up by irritating me you know? Can i spam my blog with vulgarities? Sigh, chicken tooooooooot! ); Won't be posting tonight, will be out till 12am. Bye.

baby virako: Ha, thanks luhzxz. [;

weicong: Hey Shuaige! ^^

Westcoast was alright ^^ Saw alot of familiar faces, he he.
Auntieling is here with Ray & Charmaine. & guess whutttt? Charmaine looks like Azalea, Nelson's niece. Is only that Azalea got big eyes, ha ha! :D & they're my cousins, lol. (duh) Ahli keep psycho-ing me to change phone from him. Zzz, wanted to answer him by saying " Ask your gina buy from you la! Hah haaaaa!" But then, didn't, because didn't want him to talk about his gina or other guan's gina. Lol, yep.


Reached home around 2am, super shag. Was texting wit Amy, heh. I miss her ok. Stepped on josstick's ash @ sintua. Sibeh pain k, wtfzx. Lol, but now ok le. Por-wun, yeh. I understand what "he" said to me, lol! Saw Weijie today when i'm on my way to Westcoast. Lol, was abit disappointed at first as i won't be able to see him, but how i know, i so heng. I take 184, he inside, lol! Oh-no, i'm so wrong. I must be loyal to Farris too, :/ (don't tell him) Lol, lameshit. :)


Ok, bye!

Jenica's beside me, ha ha.
We're at Ahmad's house, lol.
His house darn cool -.- & Aliff aziz's cousinnnnnnnnnn O.O
HAHA. Yep, now Shakir & Micheal is playing XBOX.
Farris went hopme to pack his stuffs, for Band's stuffz, so will see him later on.
So yep, i'll reply tags! :)

Leqi : Ok, i will. [;
Allure♥ : Hello sisterrrrrr!
小fann : Hello sister!
♥`Rinako's : Hi sister, ok. {3 too.
小Eiko,™ : Luv too, ha ha!
.. : Hello? If i am a slut, how about you? -.- [;

Q-ianHui : Ok.
♥ : Ttul.
Allure♥ : Love too.
Pearlyn. : Idk? Hahaha, lol!
Ur Sis : -.-
sakinahh : I will, baby i love you! [;
Xinyi : Ttul.
Ahling.Yukiko : Will link ya soon.
Y( : O.O
Essaystic : Ok.
ĐŐЁĽ - Ѝğ : Ttul.
huizhi<3u : Ok, ha ha. {3
Kei : Ok.
X.useless : Ok, ha ha.
Pearlyn. : I will, love you too.
Y( : Ttul.
x lerr : Ttul.
Xiao.Heartless : Huh, ok.
♥ : ?
(: : ?
Cheryl : Oh, i knowwww. HAHAHAHAHA.
baby virako : Ok, thanks.

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7th month of baobeiship wit Wenhui, (L) Ho ho he he ha ha. Ok, last warning. Lsn was alright, had chinese spelling, Cheryl & Vivien was beside me, ha ha. You know la, we copied. Ha ha, lol. Typical students (winks) Awwww, i'm starting to love to go to school even moree! I don't know why? Sat wit Farris during Physics, fyi he's super super noisy. But nevermind, my boyfriend ley! Ha ha, lol. Had captain ball match wit 3C girls, they're roughasses, they've got big nehneh & big buttocks. Score was 7-8. What the fuck lah hor, use nehneh and defend, your nehneh bigger than me so what Dai sai ah? Pui la hor, ha ha! Big boobster! >:E


After school, went to Ahmad's house wit Farris, Shakir, Jenica, Suhaimi, Michael & Hadi. Ok, i'm the only chinese girl, lol. Sri came not long after, followed by Fana & Fadhila. Farris smells very nice, ha ha. Used his MSN and disiao Ren An, the Chicken-Man. Ha ha ha! Farris promised me to be loyal to me, for 4 days no flirting, ha ha. 4 days ok? See you on Monday! ^^v


I've decided, but i gone too deeep. Far too deeep, i can't. I'm too far, but i can't stop. Argh, what the fuck? ); Anw, Farris is a tikopek. :) K, bye!

^^ Yoga Lin You Jia is my husband. :)

Ok hi readers, i bet you guys missss my sweeeetest post yep yep yep? :) Ho ho, i don't know why i so high. Anyway, this will be a long post, :/ Will you read on?

22nd/Sunday

Stead wit Sengyau, but broke up :/ Because i just can't make myself do it, lol. He's being sweet, but yeah. So ha ha, frrrriendsszx! ;D Was on the phone with Xingan at night. Sisters never come first, you gta be selfish if that happens. To You-know-who, thanks for being so frank. No, i won't be sad, you can choose to don't think about me you know? I'll act happy, yep. The most positive way is to think that you're a hongster, that's all. (':

23rd/Monday

Nothing special till Ex-boyf, Izad talked to me an l-o-led me, ha ha. This is our convo. >

Izad > Emily.

Me > What?

Izad > Eh who call you sial?

Me > Lameshit, bye! (Diao him)

Izad > Ok la, eh, i want to talk to you.

Me > What?

Izad > You walk up or down? (As our school is on top of the hill.)

Me > O.o i got drama ley.

Izad > (In disappointment) Oh ok, neverm. Bye, (smiles.)

Me > Oh, bye! (Smile)

Ok, that's for Monday. He he, i find Izad cute, lol! -.-

25th/Wednesday

Got myself a spect, chosen by Fana. Went to Artroom after school, lepak, eat pizza (sedap tau.) & i swear, i didn't nothing regarding to my Art for N level. Fucking shit man, tsk. But i got plan for my layout, he he. Akif & Michael had a fight, lol. Lazy to elaborate la, lazyass. Ohyes, i patched wit Farris! :) Ha, i know very well that he as a fake boyf can be better than ....... Yep, this is for Wednesday. :)

26th, Thursday

Went to Catholic Junior College for SYF rehearsal. Guys there are huge whereas girls there is short. And so it can be so pathetic tha we Chestnuts are wearing the almost-the-same uniform as the students there. & students gave us a what-the-hell look. Some of 'em even said, Chestnut right? Ha ha, Chestnuts is this famous uh! :@ Ha, lol. Reached school, Izad disturbed me again, tsk. After school, talked to a Sec 2 girl -.- In the end, sakai say pang sua, like wtfhfhfhf. I see sakai de fen shang, i pang sua lah hor, dont ka my jiaowei la hor, __ Sec 2 nia, zai ah? Lameass.

That's all, ha ha. So yep, lol! Next post will be about today! [;

hello ppl , im baby virako aka vera (: im helping emily to post her blog . cause she cant use computer , so yep . she ask you all dont miss her yeah ! hahah . but i will miss her (: ha , & keep her tagbox alive yeah ! (: anything contact her by phone . dont have her number ? fuck off ! . lols (((: ok , shall stop here yeah . ASF HUAT LA (: nights yozxcccc <3

I miss this small lil girl of mine, {3

Ok, lol. I just got home :/ Shall talk about today yep. [; Woke up at 7am, zzz. Supppose to have Mac for breakfast wit Aslina, but in the end. met Cheryl, Ying & Laykoon(?) and walked to 116. Went to Yingying's house, her brother's name is Nelson Sim -.- Like wtfffff?! I was like huh?! O.O REALLY AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH?! Lol, idk is it real anot, lol. Ying cooked maggie for me & Yeeru [; & Cheryl, ha ha. Nice manszc, haha. Had a bad backache, ); Then went for drama, again. Stand in for Kavitra, got injured, ); My leg is so so so pain laaaaaaa, Farid stepped on my leg on purpose just because that we're quarrelling in the scene?! -.- He's so into it la, haha. & i thought, heng, i only stand in, haha. Lololol. Forget it, lol.

After drama, Sri came to my house, i bath liao walked to Bpp & met up with Yunnan Trooper'08. Then bused to Mr Wee's house @ Hillview. So darn cool la, his house, haha. Picture will be uploaded sooon, promiseeee! [; Left at 8 pm, bused 176 then 184. & here i am.

Boy, i miss you. ); Sigh, nobody is here for meeeeee );

Tina : Oh, ha ha. I know, its darn funny la, haha! [; Go loh, i know you wanna go,haha.
vera : Ok, thanks for tagging, haha! {3
weicong : Lol? You're the one who tagged me as Mr. Teacher? O.O
patricia : Yo sister, :)
Lina : Hi sister! {3
小Eiko,™ : Hi, Eiko! {3
Kiyori(: : Lol.
vera : Thanks.
J-enna : Linked.

Okay, Farris. :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, FARRIS EXBOYFRIEND. :)

Hope you will last long with Ely yep? [; Sorry for ka-chaoing you always.

& thanks for being there for me always! Studay hard for N-level okay?

Don't keep abey asl siol? isap la sial! okay, ha ha. <3

Am i supposed to be sad or overjoyed? Ohmyohmy, i'm still like loving you. & its still strong, sigh, although without you here. sigh. Like what Leslie said, couple of same age doesn't last for long. But, waita minute, i don't believe that, ha ha. Urgh. whatever. ); Tuesday, which is yesterday is the day which i always writes letters to you, and i will send it today. Nothing for me to send alr, i miss writting letters to you, really. ); When i closes my eyes, that morning appeared. ); No, i won't let my tears drop again, never am i going to cry so hard for you. Telling me to get over you, ok. Tell me, where should i go? Ahfuckfuck, i'm lyingggggggggggggggg.

Of cus, i know i will still cry, i know i won't get over you, but i know. I don't know about the future, you might get yourself attached tomorrow. ); After that very day, you your attached for 4 times, all never lasted more than 1 month, really. Its always the same old person hurting me, really. You don't read my blog, i know. But i hope, you will ); Ever since last monday, i've been thinking. Letters has already stopped, it can be way easier for me to get over you, but i doubt i will. ); You know how much you mean to me );

Amazing Sisters Forever, <3

Okay, hi readers. Sorry for not posting yesterday as i'm so so into ASF blog, ha ha. Sorry yep. [; Alright, will talk about yesterday okay? [; [; (leslie say must smile more, lol)


Woke up by Sak's call, -.- Then got ready and walked to Plaza wit Cousin. Went to Mac, and then met Aslina then cabbed to schl. Spilled Milo in the cab ); & i cleaned up, lololol! Lucky the driver is a female, if not, mampus lah sial. Then went for Drama Practice, did Kavitra's role, Waitress, lol? Had a quarrel scene wit Farid & Anna. :) Then after drama, bused to Plaza wit Vivien. Ate KFC, actually meeting Sri. Lol sial, she at Lavender bodoh, then we went home la, lol. Then walked home, comped awhile, bathed trained to Gombak, met Grandparents then headed to Outram Park. Then walkwalk, went OG. Then trained to Tamp, went TampMall. Then trained to Clementi then bus 184 home. & i think i saw Ahhao? The guy whom sang wit me, lol! Ha ha, lol.


Today, stupid brother used his speaker and woke me up like wtf! -.- Then Leslie texted me, lol, Yep, i like him manzsxc, (smileeee) Leslie, when you sees this, dont blush k, ****y guy, haha! Lol, k la, dont say you liao, later ); again, lol! Concentrate on your driving lsn la, bodoh! -.-


Ok, well me & him ain't close la, lol. Yet? Ha, ok. I go edit ASF blog le, so yep. byebye! :D

Ohyes, that's Yoga Lin {3

Work is oh-so-boring, ): Its a rainy day todayyy, that Emily bit.ch is not working, ha ha. Didn't see her jiaobin, lololol. Today only got 2 funny thing. Lol, ok. Will tell you about it. :)

Boy : Err, excuse me, 2 sugercane, at there (points.)

(then when he point, he stretched out his hand, and nearly hit a woman's head.)

Woman : * jiaobin give him, -.-

Me : Laugh at the boy and laugh at the auntie, lolololol!

Boy was thinking whats going on, then he look behind him, he quickly put down his hand. & laugh, lol!

Another thing is ....

Boy : Err, one sugacane with alot alot of lemon please.

Me : How many lemon you want? (of cus disiao la, lol.)

Boy : 2 lemon, oh no! 3 lemon. (smiles.)

Me : 2/3 lemon ah? That one ask your mother make for you.

Boy : (jitao chua tio & smile) err, normal will do.

Me : (ARM-CHIOOOOO)

Lol right? The first boy was a NgeeAnn Poly student. Second the should be sec 2/3 bah, cus he's short. Lolololol, k, Emily, you're not tall either, ha ha! =x

Ok, i got something to say/announce. I've created a group for girls, name ASF. Which is Amazing Sister Forever. I know, it sounds like TSF, but ya, i got the inspiration from TSF. So ya, will credit TSF for the name, ha. & i will be recruiting more girls to join, yeppp. & i'm still in SAKL lah, lol. I love SAKL girls k, ha [:

Ok, i'm off to open and blog for ASF liaoooooo, byebye! {3 Tag meeee! & Boy, tomorrow's tuesday, the day i usually writes letter to you, sigh );

I coudn't face this problem alone,

I couldn't face this problem alone,

Cheryl & Sakinah is oh-so-love! :)

Good morning peeeeeoples! [: Ha, i'm like having good mood now, idk why :/ Lol, hope i will stay good mood all the way luh, till 12midnightttt. & today is my favourite day! Its 16th man, lol. & me & Cheryl is turning 16 on the 16th. Isn't that cool enough? :B Lol, k lame -.-

Last night had a funny dream, lol. I'll share with you guys, lol. Its darn super fuc.king funny k. Lolololololol, hahahaha! Ok, here is goes, >

Dreamt of 5 japanese soldiers, 4 in full uniform wit weird hats, and 1 wearing Babymilo & Bermudas & he's yoga-lookalike. (lololol!) & Eugene, Yongsheng & Edmus tio gan by him, got stand by the walkway/pathway. Then me & Yeeru was hiding inside our room, with newspaper pasted on our wall, incase they sees us hiding inside, lol. Then Yeeru kept talking and complaining about she losing the game in her psp. Then i was like telling her to shut up. Then Yoga-lookalike asked Yongsheng whether is there anybody inside the room as he heard voices. Then Yongsheng deny, and he didn't believed and ask one of the soldier (fatass) and went in. Then caught us, and was brought to the walkway/pathway. Lol, then all of us, but not me tio kan by yoga-lookalike. Lol, then i jitao sian diao then walk into the living room and ate my rice. & wtf? I'm eating white rice & steamed egg?! & yoga-lookalike came in and stared at me. Then i stare back, and he asked " nice meh? White rice & steamed egg. " Then i never answer him, he still continue to talk to me, lol. Then the 4 soldiers kept asking him to go and stop talking to me. & he left, of cause i felt ............................. you know la, lol! Then i wake up liao, lol!~ :D

Darn stupid sial this dream, lol. ;) Anw, i'm angry wit my brother man! ): He gave my number to lesLie from GheeHeng, ): & lesLie thought i'm the younger sister of my bro, like wtf. I know i short la, ass.hole monkey! -.- see you soon lol! :) & yeap, idk why i suddenly think of GheeHeng's AngKongSiao, Andy. Lolololololol, hahahahahahahahaha!!! Ok, lolol!

Keep my tagbox alive aye? Lol, and those people who wants their pictures on it, tell me [; i won't reject de, lol. :) luv yah all. & CHEROLYNCHERYL, I MISSSSSSSSSSSS YOUUUUU!!!! );

I'm effing sick, ):

Today went to work, late. Was having a bad headache and alot of customers suay loh, tio gan by me. -.- i was like so fucking dizzy la, like going to collapse likethis. First time bodoh! Then at 2.30pm, grandad told me to have lunch. As i skipped my dinner & breakfast. That's why i will feel dizzy, lol. Sometimes, i wonder. If i faints, and got into the hospital, will you people care? -.- Wanted to go home, but was raining heavily. ); Then did homework luh, i'm left with English Cloze & 1 Cheena compo. Tired tired man, sigh.

WeiJie came, lol!~ Left workplace at 6.45pm. Was drizzling at Bukit Timah, ); Bus 970 home, on purpose i took a round trip. Cried inside the bus, don't wish to talk about it, i'm trying to go with the flow, really i am. (':

Okay, i'm done posting, shall go Facebook & Friendster now, ha. Yep, playing PetSocietyy! ;D Just recieved a call from 6852****, idk who is it. Kiddy female voice, saying " hello? Qin Wen Pearlyn Zai Mah? " I was like (pissed off) " hello, huh?! " Then she say " oh sorry sorry!! " Then i jitao khup, lololol. As i hate unknown number calling in with no balls. -.- K bye.

LongFacedMonster, just now in the bus, i teared again.

Again, its because of you.

Thought of the happy phone calls, msn chats, friendster comments, texts & pranks, really can makeme cry.

If only you know, how do i went through in those days when we're together.

If only you know, how hurt am i feeling after decided to stop the letters.

If you only know, how much does it takes to be alone, here.

If only you know, how much i love you.

If only you know, how much does it takes to trust you after my 1st boyf.

If only you know, how much i went through.

Taken last last night, :O

Last night didn't had a good sleep, was having gastric pain, wtvf. -.- Was texting with Cheryl, lucky she help me distract the pain, lol. Anyway, yesterday i was so boliao and went to create a name called XiaoThy, lol. Thy stands for Tan Hui Yi, Heartaye help me think de. :) Then just now was playing with the name with Wenhui, and suddenly i thought of 2007's drama SYF.

Back then, i was the main lead for the show (smile). I'm acting as a girl name Aiko, who is trying to accept the fact that she is having her menses and how to overcome it after her mom died in the snow. & also, accepting her aunt, (i forgot the name) Well, it gave our school a bronze award, i didn't did my best, beause i was having a high fever at the very day, ): But nvm, this year's SYF we're getting better one, yep. :)

Was telling baobei bout me being the main lead, and thought of forming another name. Hah, damn cute can. lolololol, bhb. -.- I created one for me & baobei. Mine is XiaoAiko, :) Her's XiaoEiko. Same pronounciation, (ai-ko). Cool ya? Actually her's is xiaoCiko, means Ciko-pek! LOLOLOLOL, kidding. Ha, lol. Ok, i've to get ready for work alr, do tag me yep? :) Will blog later on, ha.

Oh,i love Carol Hun. {3

Bye hotstuffsx, cutestuffsx, :) XiaoAiko cinta you all, lol! AIKO?! :)

Before that, nearly forgot!

>>>

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMMYYYY!

Stay prettty forever! Faster get you car lisence and drive us outtttt! :)

Lurb yoooooooooooou, mommmmmyyyy! (loveee)

trying to brace up.

Cheryl, ha. :)

Okay, i'm back home around 7.45pm i guess? Yeh, will talk about today ya? :} Working was a bore, but wit Vivien is definately a funfilled one, always. :) Somehow, our friendship is getting stronger and stronger, which is great. :D After work, went to BeautyWorld's mac, lol. She told me something which made me laugh, lol! Then walked to bustop, as my spect is lost, i'm having difficulties in seeing bus number, (sad face) So Vien pei me wait, ha! Total she missed 3 157 & 2 174. Ya, thanks uh. You know why she pei me? Because she says she's a true friend, lol. -.- But anyway, thanks luv! " iie lurb lurb euu!~ "

970 finally came, after zillion years, lol. Saw Josh at the bustop again, lol. Then Vien was waiting for bus alone, i'm so sorry girrrrrrl! D: Lol, but ya. Anw, both of us hates the bitch from that stall beside mine's. & her name is Emily, like wtf. She keep staring at me la, pcb. -.-

Ok, well uhm. After blogging, i will restart my computer as i just downloaded the new Msn. So ya, before restarting, i shall blog bout this brother. >>>>>>>>

Leon Sung, ha! Brotherbrother (L)

Ok, i knew him years back, and there was a period when i'm so over him. Ohya, i knew him through GheeHeng, he was a gina from that guan, ha. He's name is Leon & nicko in his guan is Xiaodi. lol, its been quite long since i last see him ); He grew fatter alr, ha! But hor, he is getting from bad to worse, he could actually forget to go to school. -.- tsk. Lazybum, lol! & he is great in comforting, yaaaaaa. He comforted me on last sunday, 1am. :) He's rrrreally v v v v good! Ha, ohya, he's a noob, lol. -.- he don't know that i blogged bout him, cus he thought i'm lying, well. Brother, see this, i'm not lying. Ha, anything text me ya? Go to schl often la you, tsk. Don't treat you drinks alr la! -.- you should treat me satay instead like duh. (laughs) Ok, don't be too touched, leon sung :DDDDDDDDDDDDD

Your sister always, ha. :)

Angie : No problemo. :D

Chinyi :D : Ha, sure sure! Crazypartner! {3

Ok, miss me?

I'm feeling better, beb.

Hi people, my posts are back, lol. School days are fun? (?) Ok, i don't want to talk about it, but not for what happened last night and now. (L)


I went back to schl at 3pm+ to help Sak at Drama's SYF props. Ha, i painted. I think i'll take up painting for N level? Because i'm lousy at papercutting. ): Then had fun wit Mr Fadzil, its been awhile since i hang out wit him. (laughs) He's a cool geek, k. Lol, k. Enough. Anyway, Mr Teoh(P) gave us permission to eat the buffettt! Ha, & Mr Fadzil was like " If i go in, i won't come out alr, so we do work first." But me & Sak didn't layan him and went ahead to take food, and when Mr Fadzil saw, he's like " O.O, OMG. ITS MY TURN!" lol, he rock. (smile)


Had Meet-the-Parent. -.- told mom & dad to come later, cus they will go (wahpiang, why so long!) lol, as there were talks going on from ITE headquaters & Singapore Poly. Ya, saw Exboyfie's mom & bro. :) Fana's mom is cute! No joke k, lol.


I got queue number 15. met Mr Rajkumar. :) This is what he said to my mom. >
Emily ah, she's not a problem. She's very kind, kind to the extent that she borrowed her socialstudies book to her classmate and her book is missing now. She's a girl which can makes her go to Sec 5, as refered to her attitude etc, but her results doesn't resembles her. Ya, so she must work really hard for her Maths. If not, even ITE. So must buck up, ;) Ya, and another important point, she always seems to be moody everytime, she puts down her head and like very fierce looking, ya. Care for her more.
I'm glad that Mr Raj was the one who's speaking. Ha, lucky not Mr Lee. Cus during his phy, i always sleep. lol. Then got my report book. I passed my Humannnnnnssss!!! Like ohmfg. But i failed my math & sci. & very badly. ): Then went to canteen, mom talked to Mr Hoe. Zz, i talked to Isaac, Tina, Ying, Alas, Lingsheng & Farris etc. Ya, ha.


I'm now on msn wit Dion, listening to her playlist, on the call. Ya, not a call actually, but idk la. :) Her songs are damnzsx cool, wake up call (L) ha, so ciaos.


I'm ok, i guess i've to say or tell you guys that i've gotten him. (?)
Ya, fuck you em. Gra, idk why am i likethis you know?
Even Mr Raj said i'm moody, and ytf am i likethis?
I know i'm lying, ya. Forget it, its alright.
Go with the flow, take whatever it takes. Bye.

Passerby : No problem :)

♥`K's : I love Heartaye too.

Angie : Sure thang.

Kathie : Thanks for the tag.

Cheryl.♥ : Hey Bit.ch.

Blogsurfer : Ya, bueykeyan call me @ 82017827. Want scold me, call and scold. (:

(: : I assume you're from my school too, if you're not happy, talk to me face to face, if scared jiu call me, 82017827, Lai, dare spam, dare admit la hor, puabye. -.- Dog.

You know, you really hurt me. ):

I still, till the river dries.

I didn't knew, till today. I actually love you alot, yet you can actually do this to me.

By writting letters is trying to tell you that i love you alot, and i'm willing to spend my time on these. & i once promised you, is to write letters to you forever. You, yourself said that no matter what i've to continue to write, no matter what. I remembered that, and i told myself, i will. Nelson, you're being so selfish. I do not know why are you doing all these.

Firstly, you gave my cold shoulder.

Secondly, tells Pearlyn to tell me to stop writting letter to you.

Why in the world you say these?

Don't you know what's my motive? Why must you do this to me?! You think! For all these while, writting letters is the only way to move you, i'm trying very very very hard to move you. Do you even know who i fucking feels? Nelson, i bet you don't. Even if i cries tonight, will you care? You won't even fucking think of me. Or rather my reaction! Like finally, you must be thinking. Finally i've told her to stop. Finally she's gettin off my back.

Nelson, you hurt me, time after time, you never stop to hurt me.

I try to ignore it and continue with my life, all these 37 letters, its at least with a 1 page full length. Which letter, is less than a quater? None at all, because i'm putting my heart and soul in it. Everyword, everything that i wrote, comes from my heart.

Now, you're asking me to stop writting letters, it simply means you don't wish to recieve letters from me anymore. Nelson, i don't wish to stop, really. I don't want at all. I really want to continue writting letters to you. Actually, i know. When you agreed to the 1st aug, i can feel that you wants to ditch me off, because i'm just a jinx, i broke you & Pearlyn up. I know, you're just plainly playing my feelings. But i don't know why is it that i can actually continue loving and waiting for you. Its all because of you, i really love you alot. I don't know why are you doing all these, i really don't know why. I just can't stop writting, really. Asking me to stop is like asking me to stop everything and end it. Hope you understand, i'm hurt enough, really enough. ):

Will be MIA-ing, be right back.

What else can i do just to move you?

Tell me why,

I was looking at my past blog posts & dairy posts. And i find myself smiling till the very day, 1st August. I hate to bring up this date, really. But till 1st Aug, i've stopped smiling, and i guess, i've stopped there, the real original Emily has alr stop there long ago, i assume.. );

Sorry for that on top ^^ . Was feeling kinda low just now, but not now i assume? :/ Work today was great but tired. & i'm not late, lol! My boss (grandpa) was late, lol. So i'm not late, k shutup. JoshBrother was there for his meal. & he grew much taller and slimed down le, envy him uh! Lol, okay. Business was great, till 3pm then free. Was darn sleepy lah, tsk. And my poor eye, without spect is like without protection. When i squeezed the lemon, the juice went into my right eye and my right eye felt afresh. Lolololol -____-" Maybe i squeezed too hard le, because normally when i squeeze lemon, i will treat it as the person who i hates alot's breast/head/ass. Lol, i know i'm vicious, haha! (evil laughszsxc!)

Tomorrow's school day, again its Monday. & there's ART tomorrow, wtf. Somehow, whenever there's ART i will feeel damn scared to go for Mdm Fatimah's lsn. I don't know why, lol. :O Maybe is her attitude towards us. Somehow, she's bias. Nevermind la, bias bias loh. I also can't turn myself into a guy anyway. But i can't wait for tomorrow because i will be gettin'/passin all these. >

Crazycraps 2008 dairy from Ying in the morning. :)

Handphone strap from Fana Iero in class/at bustop.

My Eeeeeeeeyore (love!) pen from Fana Iero in class. {3

881 movie to Vivien Nuer.

Yoga Lin You Jia concert DVD to Vivien Nuer.

That's all, and yeah. Tomorrow have Drama practice. Ha, gonna strive for Gold or Silver for Singapore Youth Festival manzsxc. We musn't lose our AVA room! ); Lol, ha. So dramatic! And ohshit, i've yet finish or rather started on the very 1st chi compo which is given out on the 1st week of schl, lol. & here comes the 2nd one. Lol, i'm dead manszx. I told myself, no matter by hook or by crook must stay back and finish it, and of cause with Chan beside me guiding me. lol, ha! she's my favourite teacher man!! Lol, in a not-so-sacarstic-way. Lololol! :D

Hoho, last week, no i mean the week before. I recieved the Meet-The-People no, Meet-The-Parent session form from Mr Lee. -.- Was supposed to hand in last week, lol. Ha, but i didn't even show it to my mom la, of cause i did it it deliberately! :@ Lol, because i know my mom's pattern. She confirm will go, and Mr Lee will talk cork. But thank god, mine is only meet the Form and not Level Manager. (phew.) Lol, you know what? I can roughly know what's the teacher gonna say, lol. Because ever since i'm in Pri 5, all the teacher seems to be talking bout the same old stuffzsxc all over again and again. hah! He will say this ->

Emily is a nice girl, she only needs to control her temper. She needs to buck up on her Humans, Science & Mathematics. She can be more attentive if she is not distracted by her peers in class. And plus, she can get along with her peers in class in a proper way. (smiles to my mom then me.) (i stare at teacher.)

BUT, THE PROBLEM IS.......

If my mom ddn't get the form, simply means no Term 1 Progress Report Slip! ); Howhowhowhowhow? Grah, confirm my Science and Humans suck, Math too. Schoool, you are so sucky when it comes to taking report slip. ); Ok la, i go reply tags and then edit pictures le.

Passerby : Huh, why don't you go to imeem.com and search Emoily, then go find a playlist called "Sing Along," . That's my playlist luh, ha. [:

Angie : Hello Angie! Hahahazsxc! :D

Happy 3rd month,

^^ Its Kristlyn Heartayeeee! :D

Dearesttttt Heartayee! Happy 3rd month, i love you aeh! [: Ha, cheer up. Anything can call me, because i love love love your freaking cute cute cute voice! (kisses!)

Omfg, i woke up late, means i will go to work latee! ): Fuck lah, but nevermind, lol! Cus i can say 970 late, lol! =x Hah, really i'm very tired to go to work, but i have to, lol. I sound ego -.- Lol, whateverr! Anyway, i've accepted Suhaimi's apology yesterday. Because, i can't afford to lose a great kisser/friend like him. :) Ha, don't be shy about the great kisser aye, you kissed me 3 times la -.- Lol, & Farris, i never angry wit you la, lol! You suck lol! Ha, tomorrow's school again. :/ Have to wake up early liaozsxc!

Okay, now is 11.07am, i help Machine Gun top up her phone then get ready for work le, but i don't want to gooooooo! ): Wtf, emily you suck. Lol, k bye! :) Aeh, no. I reply tags first. Talking bout tags, hey humans, please view with tagszsxc! Because my tagbox seeeems to be rottting sooooon :O & if spammers were to spam, please la hor, spam wit your name & also give me a call with a number and not unknown number/public phone. Hah! Okay, love you all. Bye.

No, i reply tags first, lol. Hahahahahahaahahahahhahahahaha! :)

Pearlyn. : Thanks, Xingan. :)

tian xD : Thanks baobao! :)

Whats the outcome for your r/s?

Okay, i just edited it. :)

Hello again! Lol, i seriously got no idea why am i in such a good mood now. :/ Just now/currently was on MSN with Shane, Tina, Dexter, JoyceHunney, DarrenXiangGong, YimlingSister, KristlynHeartaye, BerniceMei& AmyHappyKid! :D & i edited Dexter, Kristlyn, Bernice & Nelson's. :D I'm super high now, i dont know why. But i got something for TinaDarling.

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Tina, i'm so sorry. I didn't know that by starting that height topic could actually piss you off, but it was meant to be a joke. I'm real sorry, i didn't meant to, really! ): I thought that by saying that can cheer you up or something, but i didn't thought that it can piss you off. I'm sorryyyyyy darling! Forgiveeeee me? D:

Okay, i'm so frigging disappointed in myself now, ohfuck la. I'm off to blog-hopping le, no. I go pass urine first, lo!

Go toilet, brb!

Back, lol! Anyway, i was thinking.

If i have the chance to go to ITE Higher Nitec and Sec5, which way do i go?

What course should i take?

Should i continue to pursue my dream in acting line?

Can i make it to sec5?

What am i suppose to do if i fails my N's?

Should i stop fooooling around during Humans & Science lsns?

Sighhhhhhhhhhhhszsxc! Howhowhowhow?! If time could turn back, no i mean if i owns a Doraemon, i want time to go back to Primary 6 manszx! D: I will study real hard and go to the desire school or rather get into Express stream -.- But its impossible. Lol, ahya. I dont know leyyyyy! :O Ohshit, tomorrow is working day again, Shakir lost my spects when he's cheering us at the Captain Ball Match. & like wtf, i've been going spect-less for like 3-4 days? So hard to see bus la, lol! Howhowhow? Life is so unexplainable. Lol, k la. I go update my private blog alr, byebye! :D & tag k! Loveeeeeeeeeees!

Get me up on my feet again, can you?

Nothing could change the fact, anyway. ):

Ok, hi. I'm feeling better, fever is gone, maybe its because of my headache and skipping of lunch. Alright, shall talk bout the past 4-5 days. This is will be a wordy post, but i know, you will continue reading it yeah? HA! (wide smiles.)

Fell sick on Tuesday, skipped schl with Ying. Met her under my blk and walked to Bangkit to have breakfast. Then bus 190 to Teckwhye. Wtf, waited for 2 hours just to see a doc?! (wtf) lol, okay. Then went to Lot and met Tina. Then bought waterbottle. :) Then left loh. Had a friendly captain ball match wit 4B. Tina, Ying & Vien is inside, lol. Then the score was 21-9. Like duh, we got 9. (dang) lol, because we didn't practiced at all la pleasezsxc! But its just a friendly match anyway. [: Next week, having a match with 2B. & heard from Sri that got one fucking sri-wannabe very fuck. Lol, let's see beb. Ha, try to be a fucker to our class uh! :)

Yesterday, had PE lsn, & wtf. I have to re-run 2.4km. Because the previous time, i cheated + walking all the way. Lol, so i have to run luh. Shag bodoh, going to drop dead alr, then Idris pulled my shirt and ran wit me. Thanks to him, i passed. Ha! Anyway, i'm very curious ley. Who the hell chose the destination for our schl? Why the hell is our schl on top of the hill?!

Another thing is that i had a verbal fight wit Jiawei, Alson, Suhaimi. Darn fuck up yesterday. Its my brother who started it & not my daiji at all la. Cb, that Pravi tryna walk sak-sak and stare stare. Then my brother go forward and just slap his sickening face. I was there, but i didn't did anything because ite tapor daiji, charbor mai chup. So yeah, i watch show loh. In the end, the Pravi also lanlan. -.- Then after recess, 3 of them, Suhaimi, Alson & Jiawei come talk to me. Wtf la hor, outnumber sial. You all 3 guy i 1 girl ley. Bui paisey i paisey leh. Tsk, knn. Darn dulan lah hor, then had verbal fight with Jiawei & Suhaimi in class, midst of Chem. Ignoring the teacher ans continued to fight. In the end, Alson and Suhaimi apologised after schl to me. But i didn't answered both of them.

Then walked home, alone. Because i was fed up wit everyone, Jason too. Was otp wit Amy. Got home, put down my bag and bus 963 to Causeway. Then bused home. Then slept all the way, cus of fever and the fuming air. lol.

Today, went to work. Was caught in a traffic jam along Jalan Jurong Kechil. Then met up Vien. Worked, then after 6 went to Beauty world, ate Mac & bused home. :) That's all, ya. Might blog later on, ya. Bye. Oh-no, i will reply tags first ah.

iLah : Linked, happy new year! Laughs! :) See you around in schl. {3

Babydoll : Thanks babydoll. I will.Loves!

Tina Tan : Linked, darling. :)

Passerby : There's alot of songs ley, which one?

EGO SUCKER.

Okay, i'm now fuming, ever since 11.35am. More and more angry stuffs is coming towards me. I'm having a real painful headache! Fuck life lah! What did i do exactly?! I'e fallen sick ever since Tuesday, nobody knows. & wtf. Why is it that today must happen like this?! What did i do?! From 11.35am, i've tried to keep my cool, but somehow i can't, no i mean i didn't. I shouted across the class, ignoring the teacher and continued to quarrelled with JiaWei & Suhaimi. Tell me. What exactly have i done wrong to the god or whoever. Really, i got no idea what to do now. I just feeel lke shouting out loud, telling everyone how i feels. Tell me. What have i done?

If its that not-so-privacy to you, let me know. I've got so defeated when i saw that. Really, why must you do this? Maybe, its just rubbish to you? Is it that safe? So safe till its so open? Tell me, what the fuck have i done to make everyone trying to find faults with me?! Nbcb, what have i done? If you have the fucking answer, please quickly come and talk to me. I'm very very sick now, i've got enough. Really, why? Why must you do this? Maybe, you just found out after the truth is out, but its so obvious that when its open, you didn't wanted to keep it safe. Idk why, thee is alot of answers and suspects for this happening.. I need to talk. )':

AMY ♥ : I'm back alr.

babyodoll krystal:B : Thanks.

Kathie : Thanks dear, i appreciate it alot.

.. : Fuck lah hor, knn. Spam la! Your problem ah? My tagbox back long time ago la sial. Call me la! 82017827, spam la. Fuck la
hor! Pcb, nbcb!

Jelyn : Love you too, dada.

xi-aostar@love : Hi.

Will you stop whatever you're doing?

The pieces of my heart are missing you,

I'vegot no mood to blog. Give me 4-5 days for me to get over the sadness aye? I'll be going MIA on cyber for 5 days at most. Contact me through phone, if needed.

Finally, i told you how i felt.

Indeed i felt very sad and unfair as for what the reply was.

Do you know how hurt when i got to know what the reply was?

Its been so long, its been 8 mths 7 days. If it was other girl, i reckon they will wait.

I'm not trying to say i'm better than them.

Dear, get this clear.

Its not my fault for not getting over you. You're completely wrong.

If forgetting is easy, then there'll be no such thing as Tiongxim.

I know you don't care about me alr. I know, i really know.

Even if i'm admitted to the hospital, you won't even give a damn.

I know why, compared to all of your ex/s, i can't hold a candles to 'em.

All the 36 letters, everything is just a waste of space.

This is all negatives, if you have the positives, let me know..

Everything i do, i put my heart and soul in it.

I just want to be with you, i want everything to be the best for you.

If you said i was a nice & good girl, why not keep it for yourself?

No to fit to be with me?

There's no such things as only bad person fits a bad person.

If there is, its unfair to al the good ones,

No Matter Do You Read This, I Just Want To Tell You That I Mean Everyword That I Typed.

I love you..'

Will be back 4-5 days later, goodbyees.

Tina Darling,

Happy 16th, dearest girl.

Tinaaaaaaaaa!! Happy 16th birthday! I know, its the most noisest and touching birthday.. Hope its a sweeeeeeeeeeeeet oneee! :) Ha, i act dao very very difficult can?! T.T But for you, its alrightttt! *sweeeet smile. Haha :)

Okay, i'm on the phone with TinaDarling, Alastir & LingSheng. Lol, suppose to have IssacTwin, Yingying & Cheryl de. But hor, they hung up le. Thenthenthenthen, i called. Then i acted as if i'm very very sad. Then i act dao very very xingku sialzsxc. Lol, then buey tahan liao. Then i "ahem" then all of them say " HAPPPY BIRTHDAYYY!!!! " Hah, then Tina like " Ohh. " Lol -.- Then we say our wishes to her, and i started it. :) Mine got special de, got Cheena, English & Hokkkien. Hah! Then Yingying say, then Isaac, then Cheryl. Then Alastir called. Then he say. Lol. :D

Then now, i still on the phone with Alastir, Lingsheng & Tina. & now Alastir saying jokes. Lol, and youknow what? I'm not listening to it all manzsxc. Ohmyoga, later i sure tio gan. Lolololol. Whatever! Okay, hung le. Lol, cus Alastir wants to go to sleep and the Birthday girl not free.

I'm on the MSN with Dexter, Wenhui & Amy. & he's feeeeeling real low. Dexter, cheer up. Everything will be fine, i believe you'll perservere and go on! :D Wo Zhi Chi N (L)> As friend. Lol, Wenhui also having mooodswings. Grahs, faster okay ley! I waiting to chat with you nah! Hah, as for Amy, i be-right-back her as i'm busy with my blog & Dexter's chat ya see. So i will back her later, lol! Alright, i will go reply tags now.>

Kathie: Thanks for tagging, i will try to cheer up. D:

Angie: No problem yo.

爱' Wenwen: Baobeeeeei! (L) Its alright, cheer up aye! :D Fasterfaster reply aye! (L)