You know, you really hurt me. ):

I still, till the river dries.

I didn't knew, till today. I actually love you alot, yet you can actually do this to me.

By writting letters is trying to tell you that i love you alot, and i'm willing to spend my time on these. & i once promised you, is to write letters to you forever. You, yourself said that no matter what i've to continue to write, no matter what. I remembered that, and i told myself, i will. Nelson, you're being so selfish. I do not know why are you doing all these.

Firstly, you gave my cold shoulder.

Secondly, tells Pearlyn to tell me to stop writting letter to you.

Why in the world you say these?

Don't you know what's my motive? Why must you do this to me?! You think! For all these while, writting letters is the only way to move you, i'm trying very very very hard to move you. Do you even know who i fucking feels? Nelson, i bet you don't. Even if i cries tonight, will you care? You won't even fucking think of me. Or rather my reaction! Like finally, you must be thinking. Finally i've told her to stop. Finally she's gettin off my back.

Nelson, you hurt me, time after time, you never stop to hurt me.

I try to ignore it and continue with my life, all these 37 letters, its at least with a 1 page full length. Which letter, is less than a quater? None at all, because i'm putting my heart and soul in it. Everyword, everything that i wrote, comes from my heart.

Now, you're asking me to stop writting letters, it simply means you don't wish to recieve letters from me anymore. Nelson, i don't wish to stop, really. I don't want at all. I really want to continue writting letters to you. Actually, i know. When you agreed to the 1st aug, i can feel that you wants to ditch me off, because i'm just a jinx, i broke you & Pearlyn up. I know, you're just plainly playing my feelings. But i don't know why is it that i can actually continue loving and waiting for you. Its all because of you, i really love you alot. I don't know why are you doing all these, i really don't know why. I just can't stop writting, really. Asking me to stop is like asking me to stop everything and end it. Hope you understand, i'm hurt enough, really enough. ):

Will be MIA-ing, be right back.