Sorry for everything.

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I don't wish to understand .

I'm sad now , i just woke up from nap . My forehead is getting hotter & hotter D: I don't know what happen to me , might as well die . Sigh *cries . I'm sorry for everything . I miss Nelson so much , so much D:

What i got in exchange of losing you is that people is not going to talk bout me , not finding faults with me anymore . & i know , deep inside your heart , you just wants me to be happy . You still cares , i know . When you stead with Yingxue on that very day , you asked my brother whether did i cry anot . You still asked did i show a sad face . I was glad that you actually asked . I want to let you know , i didn't felt any happier nor i wish to be happier without you . I don't wish to forget you . Sometimes , i cry , pinching myself , blaming myself for being so dumb . Eversince 1st aug , i've blaming myself , till now , this minute . I prays , i apologise everyday . Hoping that i'll get a chance again . If , having you in exhange are those troubles , i don't care . Because , like what i said , the decision lies between me & you . If really people were to hate me because of this , i won't care too . No matter what happens , i still want to be with you despite the troubles looking for me . Because having you beside me , can help me overcome any troubles given , being with you is the most sweetest sin that i'm gonna commit . I love you , i really do . I just can't bear to forget you , really . Time flies , everything changed . & it changes very very fast . But my feelings towards you didn't changed at all . I miss you so much , i've been thinking what can i do to have you . Baby , i miss you . & if i were to say i got over you , i swear upon my life , i'm lying .

(L) EMOILY .