Its supposed to be the 6th month . D':

No matter what you do , i still love you . ♥

Last night/early morning , i woke up at 4.30am . Because i thought my phone rang and i got so happy . I smiled and i was breathing very fast . But i was dreaming , but indeed the time is 4.30am .. I was dreaming , he's not gonna call me at that time anymore , no more .. D': Thinking i deserve it , from that very day onwards . Emoily doesn't deserve his love anymore don't she ? Sigh , she's smiling when she's not suppose to , she's trying very very hard to show everyone that she's alright , she's well on her own . She can manage . But no , she can't at all , not at all . Its all acting , get it ? .. Sighs , EmoilyEmily's sucha failure , failure in love . EmoilyEmily , you're a loser , a sore loser , a sucker , a biatch , you're nothing to everyone , you're just dirt to them ..

Sigh , i felt slightly better after writting that paragraph , very sorry for that . Because today's the 22nd , again . & i've yet wrote this week's letter , i'm left with 4 stamps , which is 4 weeks . After the last stamp , i've got to go . D': Sigh , let time prevails what it has to prevail . Im not gonna interupt anymore .. This morning , my mood was okay , & i was mad -.- I played with eyeliner , at first i draw ( refer to the pic above ) quite nice , hahah , i know i very bhb . Hah , then idk why like siao , i go draw a big circle around my eyes ( i didn't took photo , too ugly :/ ) & when i want to wash off , its already 11am & i couldn't fine the makeup removal ! Piang eh , lol . Then heng ah , i found and quickly wash it off and left for work . Hahaha , lol .

During the ride to work , i thought alot of things . & i cried while reminiscencing , the past was so so great . Can it be rewind again ? I miss the hourly calls . I miss you dozing off in the middle of the call . I miss the sound of your dotA . I miss you saying I Love Emily Tan Hui Yi over the phone to me before hunging up . I miss the way you laughed . I miss the way you cheered me up when i'm down . I miss you replying my letters on the phone . I miss your voice . I miss you singing to me . I miss you alot . I miss your teasing . I miss you calling me names which you only knew & i forbid you to say so . I miss dozing off with you . I miss my phone ringing in the middle of the night & during my mother tongue classes . I miss Nelson Chua Long Kwang . Alot alot , i swear . Do you ? Today's the 22nd , again .