I need to write everything out here, yes here. I'm feeeling so anguish + sad + stupid + annoyed!

Why is it that i got a brother who always saves the best for himself and not others?
Why is it that my brother is like this?
Why is it that my brother doesn't know how to respect people when he wants people to respects him?
Why is it that my parents always treats him like a treasure?
Why is it that all the boys are so selfish?
Why is my life likethis?
Why am i born in this freaking world?
Why is that i'm always thinking of him?
Why is that i can't bear to get rid of those letters?!
Why am i so egoish?
Why why why why why why why why why why??

There's so many whys, who can answer me? D': Exams are here, i couldn't get to the mood?
Why am i so dumb? Why am i so unhappy wit myself? Why am i complaining here while my parents are out there working hard? Why am i like this? D':