Hello people , laughs . I just woke up from my afternoon nap . Lol , wait , Cheryl calling me . Lol , today went to school with Fana due to boredom at staying at home , lol . We met up at bustop , Ryan wasn't there , oh sad . Lol , This particular Ryan is a hot ang moh guy whom only Me , Fana , Aslina , Sri & perhaps Yimling knows . He's super super hot , he's the another Angmoh kid whom i don't hate . Lol , i only love these Angmoh , Claire Devine who taught me how to act with feelings , Claire's husband whom taught me how to played mud games -.- , Claire's daughter & son & lastly , Ryan . Lol , amazing eh ? Lol , lame lame lame . Alright , shall talk bout today .
Went to school , attended 30 minutes Chemistry lesson , well i wasn't listening at all =x , i was thinking of something else . Then 10 am go canteen slack . Slacked with Binjun , Angelo , Fana & Fadlulu . Its was somehow fun & bored . Lol , we talked bout Condoms & Vibrator all because of Fadlulu ! He started asking " Eh if want prostitute how much huh ? " Then Binjun say " Last time $20 . Now i not sure , my ahkor go , not i go k " Lol , then me & Fana laughed , lol . And Fadlulu said he wants to try go find prostitute . Like wtf ? Later got aids as condoms is not totally 100% safe , lol . Then slacked at canteen till 12.30pm & walked home . With Fana , Binjun & Angelo . I head home while they go seperate ways . Well , i find Binjun cute lah , lolololol . But i'm not interested in him anyway -.-
Tommorrow's last meeting for Yunnan Trip . & next friday i'm off to China . I'm gonna cut my hair tommorrow . I want to cut spike leh , lol . But friends say its very lian , lol . But i still want to cut , grah ! Lol , hope its not ugly ;/ whereas i'm already fugly . Grah , tommorrow then decide lah .
When i woke up just now , i lstened to Shuo Hao De Xin Fu Ne by Jay Chou . Sigh , once again i'm a saddist again . I'm no longer as happy & cheerful like i'm use to . I've been acting , acting happy outside me . I got no idea what to do , whenever i'm alone , i'll think of the past and eventually tears drops from my eyes . The love that we shared was a very sweet & short one . His love has faded and mine hasn't , i'm trying to hold on . Although his feelings has faded , i still can remember his singings , his teasing , his voice , his scolding / talking while he plays dotA , & everything he did for me . Sigh , why am i so stubborn ? , why am i so stupid ? Its been five months since he sort of left me alone . Does anyone understands how i feel in this five months ? No , nobody does . I've been crying and crying . No one every asked me how was i ? , have i gotten over him ? . Nobody does , Now i'm crying while typing again . I'm not seeking for attention from people to pity me . I can stand up on my own , whenever i trys to stand , the humiliation is happening . How people laughed at me , how people pitied me , how people reacted when i didn't got it on 1st aug . How Lingsheng & Alan laughed at me when i told them what happen . I'll always remember the humiliation , its always happening whenever i falls & tries to stand up again . This time , i fell & i'm too tired to stand up again . I'm feeling numb , totally numb . Let people humiliate me . I'll only remember the humiliation , the memories between me & him and the pain that i've gone through ..
(L) EMOILY .
Went to school , attended 30 minutes Chemistry lesson , well i wasn't listening at all =x , i was thinking of something else . Then 10 am go canteen slack . Slacked with Binjun , Angelo , Fana & Fadlulu . Its was somehow fun & bored . Lol , we talked bout Condoms & Vibrator all because of Fadlulu ! He started asking " Eh if want prostitute how much huh ? " Then Binjun say " Last time $20 . Now i not sure , my ahkor go , not i go k " Lol , then me & Fana laughed , lol . And Fadlulu said he wants to try go find prostitute . Like wtf ? Later got aids as condoms is not totally 100% safe , lol . Then slacked at canteen till 12.30pm & walked home . With Fana , Binjun & Angelo . I head home while they go seperate ways . Well , i find Binjun cute lah , lolololol . But i'm not interested in him anyway -.-
Tommorrow's last meeting for Yunnan Trip . & next friday i'm off to China . I'm gonna cut my hair tommorrow . I want to cut spike leh , lol . But friends say its very lian , lol . But i still want to cut , grah ! Lol , hope its not ugly ;/ whereas i'm already fugly . Grah , tommorrow then decide lah .
When i woke up just now , i lstened to Shuo Hao De Xin Fu Ne by Jay Chou . Sigh , once again i'm a saddist again . I'm no longer as happy & cheerful like i'm use to . I've been acting , acting happy outside me . I got no idea what to do , whenever i'm alone , i'll think of the past and eventually tears drops from my eyes . The love that we shared was a very sweet & short one . His love has faded and mine hasn't , i'm trying to hold on . Although his feelings has faded , i still can remember his singings , his teasing , his voice , his scolding / talking while he plays dotA , & everything he did for me . Sigh , why am i so stubborn ? , why am i so stupid ? Its been five months since he sort of left me alone . Does anyone understands how i feel in this five months ? No , nobody does . I've been crying and crying . No one every asked me how was i ? , have i gotten over him ? . Nobody does , Now i'm crying while typing again . I'm not seeking for attention from people to pity me . I can stand up on my own , whenever i trys to stand , the humiliation is happening . How people laughed at me , how people pitied me , how people reacted when i didn't got it on 1st aug . How Lingsheng & Alan laughed at me when i told them what happen . I'll always remember the humiliation , its always happening whenever i falls & tries to stand up again . This time , i fell & i'm too tired to stand up again . I'm feeling numb , totally numb . Let people humiliate me . I'll only remember the humiliation , the memories between me & him and the pain that i've gone through ..
(L) EMOILY .
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