You'll miss me when i'm really gone .

Hi people , i can't get to sleep . Things are running in my mind now , alot alot of stuffs . Whole family left for Thailand leaving me , grandma & cousin at home . I'm at PearlynXingan's blog . Lol , idk who is those posers lah . Lmao , i still don't understand those spammings on my tagbox . What's in your mind man ? ( Passerbys . ) I love him also wrong ah ? Cb , you want to love him siboh ? Go love lah ! No brain -.- Your mother then prostitute lah hor , knn . I never even scold or rather spammed you , you come spam me like a mad kid . Siao eh ? Pcb , im super moody now k , idk why . My monthly friend is here , stupid . Tml gotta attend wedding lunch , tsk . I'm sibeh moody now k . I got no idea what to blog , Janice from Junior College called me and told me that i've to do post trip reflection and have to email to her latest by 9pm . Like wtf , im sibei sian liao lah . I'm sick of everything , everything . Can i like scold all the vulgarities on this post ? I'm sorry people , Emily's a girl who can't have love . Emily's a lousy girl . Emily's a dumb girl . Emily's sucha failure . Sigh , D: . To whoever out there , Emily's useless , she's been thinking bout what has happened to her recently , everything . On her birthday , she wasn't happy at all . That surprise given by Junior Jurong College only made her smile lasted bout few minutes . For the whole day , " happy birthday " messages were send by everyone but not you . I kept staring it , hoping it will vibrate . No matter is a short vibrate or long one . Somehow , its didn't vibrate .. My heart sanked , i got so so numb , i got so sick , i feel so lousy .
I need your answer so as to decide to start or stop . As long as you didn't answer my question , i'll not start . Please , answer me .
Its 2am , i think its long enough . Cus whenever my parents goes overseas , you'll call me till i'm feeling tired & falls asleep . Now , i'm gonna force myself not to think bout it and go to sleep .


(L) EMOILY .